Monday, November 15, 2010
It's Official...No More Pro Video!
That's right, you read correctly...I am now officially "retired" from pro video work and will be focusing my efforts exclusively on my own web site again and amateur video which I've been producing with my husband, Steve since 1998. I was going to wait to announce this in my end-of-the-year/looking-ahead-to-next-year blog entry but, since I get so much email about my pro work, I decided that sooner would be better than later.
Perhaps "retired" isn't the most accurate description since I never did pro video truly full-time, after all...I only shot pro scenes from late 2007 to mid 2010, with 90% of them shot in 2009...that's a small chunk of time considering that Steve and I have been shooting our own amateur stuff for my site(s) non-stop (including during the same time I was shooting pro scenes) since 1998. But whatever term you prefer, I won't be doing any more pro scenes as of 2011.
So...why am I quitting pro work? I guess you could say that I've simply had my fill of it and that, in the end, I've come to realize that I much prefer the amateur stuff that Steve and I have been producing on our own for 13 years. I have no complaints, I'm merely moving on and going back "home".
Was the money from pro work good? Yes, it was...I'd be lying if I said otherwise. Although I only dabbled lightly in it from late 2007 through 2008, in 2009 I did so many scenes that I made a killing in "extra" money. But money isn't everything (and, frankly, we were doing well before I started doing pro stuff, anyway), so I was able to severely cut back on amount of pro scenes I shot in 2010...and can now comfortably stop altogether as of 2011.
Was the "fame" fun? Yes, it honestly was...but only at first. I started off so fast and furious in the "MILF" genre in 2009 that I had an agency for booking shoots and PR agency to handle the press, and things just immediately blew up. It was really odd, after 10 years of purely amateur, Mom & Pop web site status, to suddenly find myself being interviewed in AVN magazine, to be asked to sign at tables at adult-biz conventions, to meet famous and sometimes "legendary" adult stars, to be invited to adult-industry parties (of which Steve and I only attended one, BTW) and to have photo layouts and/or articles written about me in other adult-industry press sites and magazines. At first it was flattering and exciting...but after awhile the extra attention didn't mean anything other than the fact that I started being recognized in public places which, as the private people Steve and I are in our personal lives, didn't really sit too well with either of us. So I let PR agency go after just a few months and started pulling back from the "limelight", all while still working regularly, and kept very busy - especially considering that the pro adult biz was in a serious slump at the time.
Was the sex good in the pro world? As you might expect, sometimes yes and sometimes no...but mostly it was just so-so. It's just the nature of the beast in pro work - all performers are paid to be there, so there's no telling if you will be attracted to your partner(s), and as a performer you usually have no say at all in who your partner(s) will be. As such, too much pro stuff ends up being a bit contrived, especially in comparison to the amateur stuff Steve and I have always done, where it's all about the sex and the living out of an actual lifestyle....we are in full control of who we shoot with and no one is paid to be there, so it's always very genuine.
Don't get me wrong, I had several pro scenes where I was really attracted to my male or female partners (and vice-versa) and they were very good in bed and the sex was truly mind-boggling...so much so, in fact, that Steve and I would invite them over to our place for off-camera fun, or to shoot "amateur style" for my site. But these instances were the exception, not the rule.
So, was there a major problem of some sort? No, not at all. We met some great people and we met some real jerks; I had some amazing sex, some so-so sex and some lame sex; some days were great and others were not...in other words, it was just anything else in the real world.
In the final analysis, once the excitement of the novelty wore off it started to feel too often like "work" and less often like "fun"...too often contrived and far less often "real". And if there's one thing that is true about the 13 years of amateur stuff Steve and I have shot is that we've always kept it both fun and real. And, finally, the fact is that I like that Steve is and always has been involved, personally and directly, in everything we shoot for my site...I like that bond and connection with him, and I really started missing it when shooting pro scenes. (Steve did, too.) After all, that's really what the "hotwife" thing is all about. It's a lifestyle for us. Without Steve present there is no hedonism to it.
So, with all that in mind - and with being fortunate enough to be able to walk away from the money - Steve and I recently had a long talk and decided that it was time to return to our roots as amateurs, as a couple, with him involved in every way, shooting only what we want to shoot, with people we want to shoot with who are there for the same reason I am - for the sex! It really just comes down to the issues of control and pleasure - when we are in control, the sex is real and the shoots are fun, never "work".
Do I regret ever going pro? No, I don't. As I've already said, I met some nice people, made a lot of extra money, had my "15 minutes of fame" and learned more about who I really am and who I am not. It also exposed my amateur stuff, via my web site, to a much wider audience. That said, I wouldn't change a thing. Like any big decision in life, it was a learning experience, both good and bad, and the two are inseparable. Now it's just time to move on and rededicate myself to my amateur roots.
For those of you who enjoyed my pro scenes (and there are a lot of you out there), I apologize, but this is a personal decision that I thought long and hard about. You may still see "new" scenes come out for the remainder of 2010 and into 2011 which were shot this year and have yet to be released, but that's it.
On the other hand, for those of you who, like Steve and I, much prefer our real-life, husband-and-wife-with-dirty-minds amateur stuff, you're in luck. You'll find us once again releasing new DVDs and iPod/iPhone movies every month, giving a renewed focus on Janet Exposed and even totally revising the old Janet's Foot Tease site. In other words, back to our old ways in every way!
Until next time...Happy Thanksgiving to my American fans and "cheers" to everyone else!